~xybolic

It's been a long time, eh? My sister's laptop had drunk water and drowned so I can't visit this site much. I've been using a psp to browse the net, and it can soooooo hard. Right now, I'm in a computer shop. boo hoo.

Anyway, Okiya? Who is he, really?

I think, he's Akai Shuichi. Conan seems to trust him, and that's not usual for him when Ai-chan is afraid of someone, as if a black org's member is nearby. And Ran-chan had said that Okiya-san looked familiar. She knows Shuichi's facial features, ne? And when Conan was told by Eisuke that an FBI member had died, he was wearing an all-had-gone-as-planned sort of smirk, isn't he?

However, I am still at lost about some things.. how did he fake his death? And the fingerprints? Those had been encircling my mind ever since I reread the Conan manga.

Shuichi=Okiya
but is Okiya=Bourbon?

Share your speculations.

I've just realized.. I've been two years in DeviantART already! Happy aniv to me!

Happy christmas!c:

I really should update this. haha. Thanks, Toto-sama, for reminding me.

Sorry for my worthless rambling.
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I want to forget everything.

The memories, either happy or painful, I want to forget them. I don't care. I just want to be numb. I thought he was my best friend. I didn't wish for him to be my boyfriend, and he wasn't. I don't want to feel anything anymore. I don't want to laugh at his jokes anymore , giggle at his reckless actions, sympathize whenever he's hurt, care for him... just like I did before.

I had kept my promise before that we will be best friends, no matter what happens, but he didn't keep his. I had let go of a friendship I had treasured very much. It wasn't easy but I had to.. in order to move on. I realized why I couldn't move on before. It's because of the promise I made. But now, no matter what happens between us, I don't care. I am NUMB. Just like he is.

I'll just pray for the girl he currently fancies. I hope she wont cry as much as we did. You see, this boy is a mammal with a 12-chambered heart. Five chambers are already occupied by his five ex-girlfriends and one is reserved for the one he likes. Six more slots available!

Before, we used to tell each other during out midnight conversations in IM, Ich vermisse Sie (I miss you), Mwen byen renmen ou and Ich mag Sie (both I like you). But I have a new line for him: Ich hasse Sie. I hate you.

I wish I never liked him, and he never liked me.

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Anyways, here's my motto for now:

Goodbye drama...
Hello to I dont give a fuck.